If you find him, wait until I'm in the room before you do smack him, I want to be there for that.

So you can get a crack at him after I'm done, or to hear me smack him?

...I mean, seriously. Even before he was being dense as a dead coral reef about the Dolorosa and the Disciple, there are some things a gill does not need to know. I don't need to know what kind of stuff you've got on your husktop. I'm your moirail, why would I even? That's just wrong.

At first it was so I could hear you smack him but now it's so I can punch him myself.

I mean, he told you too? It's not even fucking true!

Either way! I didn't and don't need to know that! Even if I'm relieved it's not the case.

The bullshit about not talking to the others is just icing on one pissed-off cake.

Yeah I mean, just because he doesn't trust them doesn't mean that we don't. And the fact that he uses his leader status to make us not talk to them pisses me off even more.

Seriously. I...cod. I spent every moment I could reading the Disciple's journal. She's one of my heroes. So is the Dolorosa. I...I always wanted to be like them. And it's reely not fair to be cut off like that.

It's not being a leader, it's having your head so far up your nook that you can see out your nostrils.

I'm glad we share the same opinions.

[Best moirail]

I also want to meet the Psiioniic I mean, he's my direct ancestor. He has the same blood color, the same bifurcated eyes that I used to have, the same giant irritating fangs and lisp, I want to know a lot more about him and how he lived.

Yeah, me, too.

[But she goes all funny then. She knows what the Condesce did to him and it makes her feel sick.]

I just want to apologize. For what she did.

For what who did?

[He hasn't heard about it yet]

...oh my cod. I -- I -- I didn't know you didn't --

I shouldn't have mentioned anything. I'm so, so sorry. That bitch ancestor of mine...

You don't have to tell me anything if you don't want to.

[Feferi's tearing up and she feels ill.]

...she...the Condesce...it's worse than death, what she did to him. It actually took the Vast Glub going off to stop it, which is the only thing I'm glad for it doing. I -- cod, Sollux, I'm so sorry. I just...

...she turned him into the pilot of her ship by making him a - a machine. A living computer. And then she kept extending his life. I...it makes me sick thinking about it. That coddamn motherglubbing beach.

[And then she's crying.]

I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. I...

[hugs are good right now.]

It's alright. Just because she's your ancestor doesn't mean that you're going to do the same to me as she did to him.

[And she starts crying harder.] I - I'd never - I don't want to be like her, I don't, I don't...

And you won't be like her, if you even get one thought about being like her, I'd be there to make you change your mind.

T-thank you. I mean it. Thank you.

I don't think I ever would, though. I want to be the opposite.

I'm not gonna hurt you like that.

I know you're not.

[He gives her a tighter hug.]